We always have that one friend who seems to have a better job than us. We always have that one former classmate who has a good career compared to us. We always have that one colleague who travels often without the thought of getting broke. Then you ask yourself,”When can I be the better one?”
Looking at other people’s lives makes you forget your own goal. You are always occupied with the thought of them getting the most out of their lives. Well in fact, you do have a different opportunity in store for you. It is a cliché thing to say,”Do not compare yourself to others”. Yet we need to be reminded every now and then.
We often forget that each of us is chasing various things. If your friend dreams to be a model and becomes one, then you should be happy knowing someone dear to you gets the success she wants. You wouldn’t know how she worked hard to achieve her goal. Therefore you should not expect to get the same opportunity for things you do not pursue.
If your friend is living her dreams, so what? That’s HER DREAMS. NOT YOURS.
You don’t have to feel sorry for yourself. You have your own dream to pursue, may it be small or big, that’s where you should focus on.
Life has a way of showing us light. Eventhough we think life won’t get any better, bad days will be gone eventually. In the most unexpected moment.
I am unemployed for about five months now. I must admit that I never had a back-up plan after quitting.I’d just go with whatever happens that time. I did not apply to another school.I did not even attempt on taking my Master’s degree. It was like the end of my story. No progress at all. Those were the worst days and months of my life. It also didn’t help that my college friends looked so happy, content and have their lives figured out.
I was lost. I felt alone even in a crowded place. As I walked, thoughts were flooding in my mind and I was trying not to tear up. I couldn’t even find words that would be enough to describe how I felt. Sadness would be an understatement.
Until I got to reconnect with my High School friends. It was just a normal talk where we tried catching up with each other’s lives.That was when as if someone slapped me the truth. It was just me. It was just me who kept on pressuring myself. It was just me who thought they were judging me. It was just me who assumed that there was a competition. Only me.
After how many months, I am now finally breathing. Inhaling all the positive vibes and exhaling all the negative thoughts. My employment status is still the same, but I am not the same person anymore. If there is one thing I have learned from this experience, it is to stop pressuring yourself to figure out everything in your life because sometimes God can do it for you.
You are my light,
When Sun sets,
Moon hides, and
You are my light,
In empty streets,
Starless night, and
Unknown dark path.
My hand against my chest felt how my heart beat fast. I was singing the national anthem but my eyes focused on him near the flag. My knees became like a jelly that I couldn’t stand straight. It was an exciting moment… the two of us with the invisible crowd.
That morning was the beginning of our story that has never started.
You don’t have to be killed
To experience death
For you can die
It was unplanned,
It was unintentional,
We were friends,
But you took one step closer.
I got confused,
The wall was shaken,
We were friends,
And so I took one step away.
It was a foolish game,
That only you and I can play,
It was a long played game,
But nobody wins.
It’s been almost two months since I left my first teaching job. I must admit there were times when I asked myself if leaving was a good choice. For some, this may be a bad decision. Who’s in the right mind to leave a good paying job? Maybe I am crazy. I am crazy enough to throw everything away.
Even though I still don’t have a work now, I feel free from the feeling of emptiness that took away the hope I had. In this period of my life, I have come to realize the importance of everything that surrounds me. My friends are constantly telling me that I will get through this. They even suggested things that I might do for a while.
As what I have said in my previous blog, I still want to pursue teaching. In fact I am waiting for the update on my teaching application in Japan. There is no assurance that I will land a job in Japan but I want to stay positive about it. Maybe if I get to teach motivated and appreciative students this time, I will have more confidence and initiative to become better. If I get the teaching position in Japan, I will not only have a job but will also fulfill my dream of living abroad. If I don’t, maybe it is what God has planned for me.
Maybe leaving my previous job is not the best decision I’ve made so far but I am quite sure that it is something that I won’t regret doing. We should never deprive ourselves the happiness that we think we deserve. It is not so bad to choose happiness for once.